In the midst of reaching my goal...

Its week 10 next week!!! I have exactly three more weeks to my finals!! Oh God... I must be able to survive this torment because I have a group assignment that has yet to be completed!! I knew I can't count on them. GGRRRR~~~ I dare say the answers are totally wrong or at least not a report at all! Siighhh... I didn't want to create tension or a big issue among the four of us so I just said thanks to all who did the tasks. I am very honest here saying that I do feel the unjust because I had to redo their work. So basically, I will be producing the whole business report all alone and paste their names on the cover sheet and title page. 2500 words are not a lot but damn.. I do the job and you get the marks??! Arrghhhh!!! Enough complaining for me. I've been complaining since the start of this trimester. I'm going to get a smelly mouth soon. 

Back to the initial topic, I am suddenly lost in how to study... =( I must get at least a WAM of 70% to be able to transfer to Monash University do my desired course. I know I shouldn't doubt myself but somehow my conscience questions myself whether I will be able to achieve this goal. It tells me not to put such high hopes... I know I shouldn't but I need to because I want it so badly. Mum and Dad put all of their hopes on me. I must do well. I must be able to enrol in my dream school and being able to graduate from there. My next goal will be to obtain a scholarship from the university. Then work for a few years here before planning for the next goals... I must get HDs!!! Must get a first class honours degree. If possible with a masters degree as well. And if time and money is not a problem, I will move on to another level of education. A PhD... 

I'm guessing, if I ever see this post a few years later and if I had succeeded the goals, it would be great! But if I had not, I think I'll either laugh at my naiveness for believing I can do it or maybe just regret that I had not tried harder...

Anyway, believe in yourself, Jessica. You can do it. If you believe you can, you can! Don't worry too much. Have confidence in yourself and ignore negative comments from irrelevant people. Don't let the useless words hurt and destroy your future!