A Very Long Post, Not Very Long Actually. Hmmmmm.. Weird~

Soooo.. Here I am again. After such long time of 'disappearance'. Not really. I do visit my blog occasionally but just never post anything new. I've ran out of ideas and what to write about. Totally have no inspiration or whatever. Things have been dull for me. I become an almost expressionless person these few years. I started the blog in 2008 because of my sister who was then preparing to go to UK to further her studies. We update each other through blog. Oh well, at least she did that. I didn't really updated myself apart from random sad or rather depressing love stories. 
  Don't know why I just love to write really tragic, depressing love stories. Probably mad. LOL. Then I stopped posting for quite some time I guess. Probably a year later when I posted only one about how worried I was for a major examination. I did quite well in that examination if you are wondering how I did. Then, I never posted again if I'm not wrong. I can't be bothered to open a new tab [Oh god fire alarm again!]. Oops.. I apologise on that section. The fire alarm from my hostel went off. As I was saying, I can't be bothered to open a new tab and search what I posted in the last 5 years or so because it is already 2.13AM here in Melbourne. 
  Lets fast forward a little further.. I completed secondary school up to Year 11 then move on to Year 12 which is the A-Levels of CIE syllabus. I went into the science stream and that one and a half year was the happiest moment of my life. I had great friends and memories there. The had moved to the new site though. Such a pity that I didn't get to visit the teachers before I came back to Melbourne. I didn't do very well in A'Levels. I gave up on science actually though my heart stills tickle whenever someone is to talk about science. So I opted to go on a business path. Most of my family members majored in Business and Law. So I thought why don't I try the Business and Law faculty. Since my family did well in this faculty, maybe I am destined to further my studies in this. So, indeed I enrolled myself to a university in Melbourne pursuing Bachelor of Commerce majoring in Accounting and Finance. I wouldn't mind pursuing a double degree including Law but unfortunately the law degree offered in my uni is unrecognised in my own country. The only way I could transfer to a valid course is to transfer uni as well and that takes up a hell lot of time, money and effort. Besides that, I will need to score a WAM of above 85%. Madness~~
  Then, I thought maybe not. I should just focus on further studies to be a chartered accountant instead. Oh yeah! Money Money Money. Who doesn't love money, right? But I am very ambitious. I want at least an honour degree and an MBA. PhD is optional though. To achieve that, I need to go step by step. Need above 65%. Should be alright I suppose. Hopefully.. Pray to God. You got to help me with this. Please give me the strength to move on and strive for the better. Thank you, God!
   Sorry.. Got lost track again. So yeah.. That's about it I suppose. Basically that's what I did and where was I in the past few years. Very briefly though. I once had all the attention I wanted and now I'm just a lonely bird flying away from home to look for food. Food for itself and to bring the food back to its clan and make them proud. However, the amount of food that this little bird has to take to way too much because it has no friends to help share the burden of food. And that's me now. I have no friends except one very good neighbour. We spend most of our time together. She's a very good person but sometimes can be quite blur. I hate the uni mates. They are of no fun. They have their own friends and does activities that I can't join. Therefore, isolating myself from them. Such a lonely I am. But I shall endure because I want to succeed. I want to show them that hard work is everything. Nobody wants to look back at uni life and regret. Thats what my sister told me. I dont want that to happen to me. I shall not regret for whatever I did in my life. Being regret is the worst thing could ever happen in someone's life. That person will never live happily. Endure, Jessica. Endure the pain now. No pain no gain. Every successful person would have went through much more than you are now. If you want to be successful, face the challenge! It is also a word to everyone that you should face any challenge bravely in order to overcome it for it will embrace you if you do not. Every person has to go through challenges at some point of his/her life. No one can escape it. It is what that shapes us into we are now. Have a goooood weekend peeps!! Love all of you! <3 font="">
Cheers...

#hypocrites #feelingold #complains

Feeling old.... Just hate socialising nowadays. Imma turtle wannabe now because recently, I have been meeting people who does not click with me or rather, I do not have the umph to click with them. I know its a big world out there but for me some people are the just behaving weird. Just not the type of people I met in my social circle. People I used to meet have really good manners as in table manners or even when socialising. I guess I am just not getting used to the diversity of people over here just yet which I do not really understand why someone would be that rude to insult the other party even when the other was not wrong! Is it even wrong to say that she does not understand you because you were speaking so softly = mumbling? And, I also do not understand why most of the people I got to know here are soooooooooo nosy!! Oh, come on. Just leave the poor people alone and lead their own private life. Why would you talk behind people's back when it has nothing to do with you? Then pretend that you were not involved in complicating the issue or even created an issue that should not even exist! Get a life! Even an eighty year old grandma does not gossip like that yet a group of 20-30 year olds does that! A bunch of hypocrites!!!